I keep thinking that every time I have to deal with these bastards. I repeatedly tell them all to die whenever I see them. Of course I mean the insects whenever I think that, but I couldn’t help but feel a little guilty when my mom got the call that one of my aunts had a heart attack. It wasn’t entirely unexpected. My grandmother had many heart attacks, and my aunt is older and used to be overweight. It’s one of the many worries that is always at the back of my mind. No matter how much I think about it, it’s still a shock when it happens.
I haven’t seen that aunt in about 7 years, and only briefly spoke to her once in the same amount of time. We got into an argument back then, and that was all she wrote. We can hold grudges in this family. It comes from my grandmothers side. Her father once stopped speaking to her, Nanny wouldn’t talk to people when they pissed her off, and my aunt stopped talking to me. I was very surprised and happy when she finally broke her silence last year. Even though we’re still distant now, I wouldn’t want anything to happen to her. My grandmother was older when she had my mother, and my mother waited to have a child, so my family is older, and slowly disappearing. My grandmother died when I was 15, then her only remaining sister died a year and a half ago, and my grandfather died last summer. Now mortality rears its ugly head again, even though death claimed no one this time.
As for those little monsters that are terrorizing me, I am losing both the battle and the war. I don’t know if I’ve mentioned it before, but there’s a colony living in this building. I find one of their ant hills, they go to another. They even build ant hills near the litter box using kitty litter! They are industrious little fuckers, I’ll give them that, but I despise them. Summer in Pittsburgh has always brought ants inside looking for food, but I’ve never had to deal with actually living with them! These squatters have got to go. They are quite literally driving me crazy.
My mom got some supposedly pet safe, all natural insecticide, and damn does it smell potent! They do warn on the bottle that people who are sensitive to smells should beware. My sense of smell is pretty bad, but even I can tell it stinks to high heaven. It better damn well be non-toxic to pets and people considering how much of it we’ve all breathed in. I even got a pretty good whiff of it when I was spraying. I think it’s supposed to be a foam, but no matter how much I shake it only sprays halfheartedly.
At least this seems to have driven them away from that area. The last ant poison we got they actually liked. They built a hill right next to it. It said it was only good for a few types of ants, so I guess we have the especially hardy kind. I won’t let these creatures of evil win, though. They have a life long enemy in me!